I have had a sever panic attack followed by crying which ended up in me staying up all night. It is not that unusual for me, I tend to have one or two of these every year, but this one was the worst. I cried over stupid things and remembered even stupider things.
The worst part of it was my internal rough talk monologue is not working anymore. My usual tough talk follows the line is of how my Mom had to be tough to leave her medical career behind to raise me. Those sobering words now make me breakdown since I can't even stop crying over incompatible people and things yet to be seen. And staying awake for 24 hours never helped anyone especially when you cry in eight of them.
There is this Ace of Base song called The Sign, I need to listen to it more because it is the only anchor I might have to get up and get going. As they tough talk in the Marines, I need to unf**k my s**t.
The worst part of it was my internal rough talk monologue is not working anymore. My usual tough talk follows the line is of how my Mom had to be tough to leave her medical career behind to raise me. Those sobering words now make me breakdown since I can't even stop crying over incompatible people and things yet to be seen. And staying awake for 24 hours never helped anyone especially when you cry in eight of them.
There is this Ace of Base song called The Sign, I need to listen to it more because it is the only anchor I might have to get up and get going. As they tough talk in the Marines, I need to unf**k my s**t.
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